Late night in the new year

So I am up late with this dang cough/sinus infection and I think why not set up a blog? It's something I've been wanting to try and any attempt at sleeping in the horizontal position ends in horrible fits of coughing which result in a super tired and crabby husband and no actual rest pour moi. Note to self, I really need to purchase a recliner to allow more comfortable, non-horizontal sleeping.

Also, this is a rather momentous time for me in my life in a quiet and contemplative sort of way. This is the first time since I was of legal working age that I am sans job. It is a mixed thing this new unemployment status. Since I have this bad cold it is refreshing not to be dragging my bedraggled carcus feeling self to work or to have to use precious PTO but on the other hand I find myself asking "what next?" This is one of those times when you ask the question and don't have the answer. There are certainly any number of things I can spend my time on, reading, walking in the park, going to the gym, labelling spices, writing my thesis, etc. and I am sure I will do all of these things in the next couple of weeks after I am through the cold fog. Still, after these various relatively unimportant and important tasks, I am at the whim of the universe and my creativity. Where will my path take me? I am here in a relatively new city with my husband and few friends we have collected since we arrived in August so essentially I have few ties that bind, or connect. So I find myself doing things like starting a blog, signing up for daily "the secret" messages (I know a bit trite but I do think it helps) and searching the new netflix instant view feature. Considering all things being equal (a rather strange thing so say I know after all how can all things be equal but somehow it fits the bill) it is not a bad place to be. On the one hand, I don't know what the future brings and on the other, you never really know what the future brings. Oh you might know that tomorrow you'll get up, have copious amounts of coffee and go to work but in the longer term, it really is hard to tell. For example, last year at this time, I was recuperating from planning bowl festivities for my job at the Alumni Association of my Alma Matter. There was no way for me to anticipate that my husband would later receive a job offer from Microsoft and that he and I would be sent into a tailspin as we made a completely unanticipated move across the country and away from our hometown, family and friends.

So I start the new year with more than the usual number of questions about what the new year will bring. What will I be doing in a month, six months, a year from now? What will I do once I have employment or should I just write, write, write? I have so many ideas running around in my head, or treading water (the half-written juvenile novella or the screenplay idea I've had since high school) that I'd like to put down on paper. I think getting those ideas on paper will be a good start and after all with no job, I should in theory at least have more time to write though looking for and applying for job is more time consuming than I'd like. Maybe this is one of those times when the journey will be just as important as the destination. Either way, this feels like an important time in my life. There are a lot of milestones already: a new town, a new home, my 30th year, a four-year wedding anniversary, and lots of wedding and new additions to the extended family. Plus I think there is something about 2009 that is significant in a more global way. We will have a new president and hopefully a more hopeful and positive era will begin. Thinking about the year ahead, I realize that this is the last year before 2010! Really, I remember thinking 2010 was so far away as a child and now we are less than a year's countdown towards it. And if we're thinking ahead, there is the 2012 date looming, the end of the Mayan calendar. I know for some this idea is hocus pocus but I think regardless a big change is coming. I hope that my upcoming future and the more global changes in the next year will be good ones. Right now there is a lot of old clutter being cleaned out of our various human systems: political, financial, and spiritual. After all, sometimes you have to make a small mess in the process of cleaning up a bigger, systemic mess. I think that is what is going on right now with the markets, political scandals, etc.

Well that's enough about that for now. I am off to ply myself with some more herbal tea, cough drops, and maybe some instant netflix or a bit of reading before my next attempt at sleep.

Signing off,
Thoughtful in Seattle : )